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Enter the 5^th anniversary, 6 years and 2 months if were to include the times we spent before the ½ year split. I’m happy and thankful being together again then.

All along, you have been here for me. Somehow, you have made me a better person, a better life today. The things you have done, with all the encouragement, supports and gestures that you’ve showered me with, you are really a star and I’m lucky to found you. I love being with you and everyone is like a family at home.

Passion & desires used to be strong. There are still now, lesser. Getting older, my heart no longer as energetic as before. Sometimes, I felt falling behind and feel unfair to you. Sorry for I have not been good at keeping it up. I guess this is norm after being in a long relationship. It reaches plateau.

Confused. I wanted to walk away yet am worry. You have been nice. My parents love you too. Knowing the old generation, they stand up for loyalty. They concern if I can get another one as good as you, which is true. One part of me wanted to stay, hoping that things will turn out great again later. Another part says no. There could be better trees in the forest waiting to be discovered. Aahhh, the angel Vs devil battle. Crossroad, thinking, thinking… been thinking, again thinking, and still thinking. Hahahaha…. which path to choose. I’m afraid if I’m wrong again. I might not be that luckier of you accepting me again. There are pros, there are cons. And everything comes with a risk. Am I ready for that change? Am I ready to the risk?

I don’t want to think and I don’t want to think about it now. Give some times to chill, few more months perhaps to see how things unfold.  Hope things will work out by early 2008 for us.  Bring back the charms; hold me back & spice up my life once again before it’s late when I say “I do, decided to walk away from you.”