To expect or not to…….
Back from trip, nothing aspiring happen.
A gal friend recently blog, inspired from the chat we had over dinner weeks ago. Being single, actively seeking for love from opposite sex. And so I told her, if it happens, it will happen eventually my dear… just waiting for the right time. Worry less, and as long as you are living happily now, it’s okay. Reacted in full sentiment, my viewpoint to her is so, so, so wrong. She reasoned that in order to living happily, it’s even essential to look for a guy and fall in love with…. at least knowing that there’s someone to look forward, waiting at home and be pampered after a stressful workday. Sounds right too, ‘coz if were to wait for it to happen… nobody knows when is it going to happen or worst, won’t come at all.
So, a little confuse here; to expect or not to?
Having expectation is good. But the more you expect, the higher disappointment if things didn’t work your way. It’s hurtful and very demoralizing. As if you admire someone, trying to get close to him/her, catching their attention as much as possible, hoping that one day they will realise and open their door of heart for you. Of course a celebration when this takes place, we can open up champagne and cheers around. For unfortunate, thing didn’t turn out the way you want it to be, the world turns gloomy, wordless.
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So much so have been expected from you, you gave your word for the change saying you will give more. I’ve been counting the days since then, and I contentedly looking forward to be back even when I was away, can’t wait to unwrap life sweetness. Guess you didn’t know I’m a person who hated broken promises so much in life. And now you are giving me excuses unable for the change, with more sweet talks? You have let me down, totally! Though I’m not sure if the other woman receives better treatment, but I try not to think much ‘coz I know eventually I’ll get hurt thinking she has more of your affection this time around. I hope not, through all the years, thick and thin being by your side. I wonder if you know that I was disappointedly sick the other day as I was already drained, and when you break the news I felt even weaker, leaving no energy to boost up immune and so I had let go myself.
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See, it’s nothing new. It’s better not to expect……. I’ve learnt a long time ago. Like I’ve once blogged, life deserves a move on if things turn dull. Walk out, on the lookout for a better one…….to be with someone who knows and appreciates more of you. My heart has already gone wild, waiting for the right occasion, if it’s meant to happen……. it’s surely happening!!
……. but then again, I’m expecting a new baby now. Err, if it’s positive… does that meant I have to stick and stay on?? Hmm, life’s tough at some points.
